another start...really?

Well, at least this time it's been less than a year since I last checked in. However, it's been the kind of year that feels like five. Wow.

I've had major changes at work that have moved my career forward in major ways, but that also added to my stress, responsibilities, and workload. My sweet and smart little girls have entered second grade and become much less little. Plus, we bought a beautiful new home and sold a beloved old one. Every one of these changes has been so wonderful and so overwhelming at the same time.

To be honest, I know I am very lucky and very blessed. So, the question is this, "Why can't I sit back and enjoy all this happiness?"

I started this blog almost four years ago and while so many things have changed, so many things have stayed the same.

I was inspired by Gretchen Rubin's "The Happiness Project," and made it my goal to follow her pathway to ultimate happiness. Unfortunately, her amazing book was too much at one time...the equivalent of a crash diet...and I couldn't stick to it.

So, it's a fresh(ish) start with simple goals and no expectation of perfection. And, isn't letting go of perfection the first step toward happiness?

what's the skinny...

Oops...I was supposed to post this on Friday, right? I am really not very good at this.

4/19/2013: 213.2
4/12/2013: 213.6
Difference: down 0.4 pounds

Hey...it could be worse. And, this week might be. With work stress and a never-ending winter come evening cocktails and comfort food.

"Evening cocktails and comfort food"...that should totally be the title of my memoir...

what's the skinny...

Okay, first Friday weigh-in. My goal is to post this weekly, even if it is my only post of the week.

4/12/2013: 213.6

Alright, now let's make some weight loss magic happen, people...

still here, huh?

I am amazed to find that this blog is still sitting here almost two years later. I am less amazed to realize that time keeps flying by and I keep making little to no progress toward my goals...and how sincere and optimistic I am each time I begin again.

I was at a Daisy Scout meeting tonight. One of the leader-moms and her family are moving to Texas and I am disappointed. It's not as though we had become close friends...we are little more than acquaintances. But, she is one of those women who makes you feel good by just being around her. She is the kind of woman you want to be...or at least drink a few glasses of wine with. I kept hoping that one day she might rub off on me just a little.

She's always upbeat, she always seems put together, she always seems to have the time to volunteer and be involved and to do the right things. She runs and golfs and plays tennis. I'll bet her Pinterest boards would be amazing.

As for me, I'm feeling like a scattered mess. No matter how hard I work to try to catch up, I just keep falling farther behind. I have amazing bursts of energy that help propel me ahead, but I'm feel like I'm starting to run out of fuel a little. I have so many things I want to do and change for me, my family, my friends, my company...to be better, stronger, happier. Right now, however, I am exhausted and overwhelmed to the point of paralysis.

It feels like now is a good time to start again. I'm not sure what I'm even starting, but I feel like now is the time.